Life

Well I've been reading "The Normal Christian Life" by Watchman Nee, as you suggested Ben. It's a deep book. He does an excellent job of taking things that we consider basic things, like the cross, and presents them in a very different, but true, angle. It's really incredible how much there is to be found in Jesus's crucifixion and ressurection. It's amazing. Now, I have a dilemna. It says in the bible that if you ask God for something and believe that you have already recieved it, then you will recieve it. Now in "The Normal Christian Life", Nee says that you need divine revealation of how Christ's death payed for your sins. This allows you to reckon that you are dead to the world and only alive in Christ's ressurection. You need divine revealation of how you were "crucified" in a sense with Christ, yet he was the only one who died. That when he died he took your sinful self with him. He did. Anyways, Nee warns against reckoning as if you have something, when you don't. He gives the example of having 12 shillings in you pocket, but writing in your pocket book that you have 15 shillings. That's wrong. He also gives the example of telling himself that he is Miss Q. over and over. He may begin to believe himself, but if someone suddenly calls out to him "Mr. Nee!", then he will forget for a moment that he is trying to bew Miss Q, and will respond. So I want this divine revealation, but if I believe that I have already recieved it, then I'm reckoning that I have something I don't have. But Jesus said that I will recieve it if I believe that I'vew already recieved it, you I think I'll take God's word over Nee's. I'm going to believe that I've already recieved it. Any thoughts?